Dr.Commander Selvam

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 VAIRAGYA

Raja Tanaka, though he ruled a kingdom, was a perfectly dispassionate man. So was Raja Bhagiratha too. Queen Chudalai possessed perfect vairagya, though she ruled a dominion, while her saintly husband, Raja Sikhidwaja, who retired into the forest to practice penance and Yoga, was intensely attached to his body and kamandalu.

 

You cannot form a correct opinion of any sadhu or sannyasin or even householder as to his mental state of vairagya or mental condition by just having a casual talk with him for a few hours or staying with him for a few days. You will have to live with him for a very long time to study his internal mental state.

 

Generally most people commit serious blunders in these matters. They are deluded by mere external appearances. They mistake a physically nude sadhu for a great mahatma in the beginning. Later on they feel obliged to change their impression after closer contact. Physical nudity alone will not constitute real vairagya. The mind of the physically nude sadhu may be full of fantastic desires, cravings and appetites. Who knows what is wanted? Therefore, the mental nudity, i.e., complete eradication of vasanas, egoism, etc., is required. Do not be deceived by external appearances. Beware! Beware!! Beware!!!

 

Defects of Sensual Pleasures

 

If you do not possess viveka, if you do not try your best for the attainment of salvation, if you spend your whole lifetime in eating, drinking, sleeping, marrying, divorcing and propagating the race, you are no better than a quadruped. You will have to sit at the feet of these animals and learn several lessons from them. Even animals possess self-restraint to an astonishing degree. O man, where has your self-restraint gone?

 

Sensual enjoyment is attended with various defects. It is attended with various sorts of sins, pains, weaknesses, attachments, slave-mentality, weak will, severe exertion and struggle, bad habits, cravings, aggravation of desires and mental restlessness. Therefore, shun all sorts of sensual enjoyments and rest in peace.

 

The Narayana Upanishad says: “In the beginning these two roads were laid—the road through karma and sannyasa. The latter consists of the renunciation of the threefold desire (son, wealth, and fame). Of these, the road through sannyasa is preferable.” The Taittiriya Upanishad also says: “Renunciation (tyaga) certainly is to be preferred.”

 

Mere outward giving up of a thing is nothing. It is not real renunciation. Real tyaga or sannyasa is absolute renunciation of all vasanas and destruction of the heart knot (ignorance), the chit-jada-granthi.

 

The Glory of Vairagya

 

What should be renounced is that bheda buddhi which says: “I am superior to that man; I have done that, I have done this; I am the body,” and the kartritwa abhimana which thinks: “I am the doer.” There is no use of renouncing your home, wife and children if you cannot renounce these also.

 

He cannot be truly regarded as having renounced the world altogether who has merely withdrawn himself from worldly possessions. But he, who living in actual contact with the world, finds out its faults (doshas), who is free from every passion and whose soul depends on nothing, may well be said to have truly renounced the world. Read the story of Raja Sikhidwaja in the Yoga Vasishta. You will clearly understand this point.

 

Renounce this world. Renounce the desire for moksha. Renounce renunciation itself. Then you will become THAT. You will become ITSELF.

 

Dear brother! If you have no real sustained vairagya, you will find no improvement or progress in spirituality. Vows, austerities, energy and meditation will leak out like water from a cracked pot. Be careful.

 

There is verily no sword more powerful than vairagya to cutoff all sorts of attachment to this world. Hold this sword in your hand and march along in the spiritual path. You will safely reach the goal.

 

The shadow of clouds, the friendship with a fool, the beauty of youth, wealth, all these last only for a very short time. They are impermanent. Shun them all ruthlessly.

 

Only a thirsty man drinks water. Only a hungry man eats food. Even so, a man who is spiritually hungry and thirsty will only drink the Nectar of Immortality.

 

The life of Vemanna is worthy to be read. He, was a jnani of Andhra Desa. He was leading a voluptuous life, most abominable indeed. The moment vairagya dawned in him, he became an entirely different man. He made no sadhana as he was a yogabrashta or one who had fallen from yogic practices in his previous birth, and became a jnani. He was and is very much revered.

 

This search after God and God-realization is a question of supply and demand. If you really want God, if there is a real demand from your heart for God, then the supply would come.

 

He is really a sannyasin who is free from passion and egoism and who possesses sattwic qualities.

 

Atma-vichara (enquiry into the nature of atma or self) and yogic practices done without intense vairagya becomes fruitless.

 

To get vairagya one should seriously ponder over the various entanglements and bondages of married life.

 

If you get vairagya, rest assured that is a sign of purification of mind (chitta-shuddhi).

 

The things that used to afford you delight before, give you displeasure now. That is a sign of vairagya.

 

Vairagya that comes momentarily after such accidents as the loss of some dearly loved relative or wealth is known as karana-vairagya. It will not help you much in your spiritual advancement. The mind will be simply waiting for an opportunity to catch hold of the sensual objects when an opportunity arises.

 

Therefore, vairagya born of discrimination or viveka is the premonitory symptom of spiritual development. That will help the aspirant. That will give him a good spiritual uplift.

 

Varieties of Vairagya

 

Vairagya is of two kinds, viz., karana-vairagya (on account of some miseries) and viveka-purvakvairagya (on account of discrimination between the real and the unreal).

 

The mind of a man who has got the former type of vairagya is simply waiting for a chance to get back the things that have been given up or lost. As soon as the first opportunity occurs, the man gets a downfall and goes back to, his former state. Vishaya (sensual object) does havoc in him with a vengeance and redoubled force from reaction. But the other man who has given up objects on account of deep enquiry and viveka, on account of the illusory nature of objects, will have spiritual advancement. He will not have any downfall.

 

Drishtaanursravika vishaya vidrishnasya vasi-karasamyaa vairagyam–“That particular state of mind which manifests in one who does not hanker after objects seen or heard and in which one is conscious of having controlled or mastered those objects is non-attachment.” (Patanjali Yoga-Sutras 1:15)

 

It is only when the mind is absolutely free from the attachment of all sorts that true knowledge begins to dawn and samadhi supervenes. Secret powers, attainment of heaven, states of videha and prakritilaya, etc., are all temptations. One should be perfectly free from all sorts of temptations. Samadhi comes by itself when the yogic student is fully established in perfect vairagya. Paravairagya is the means to asamprajnata samadhi.

 

Stages in Vairagya

 

There are four stages in vairagya: (1) Yatamanam. This is an attempt not to allow the mind to run into sensual grooves. (2) Vyatirekam. In this stage some objects are attracting you and you are endeavoring to cut off the attachment and attraction. Slowly vairagya develops for these objects also. Then the vairagya matures. When some objects tempt and delude you, you should ruthlessly avoid them. You will have to develop vairagya for these tempting objects and it must also mature. In this stage you are conscious of your degree of vairagya towards different objects. (3) Ekendriyam. The indriyas stand still and subdued, but the mind has either raga or dwesha for objects. Mind is, in other words, the only indriya that functions independently. (4) Vasikaran. In this highest stage of vairagya, the objects no longer tempt you. They cause no attraction. The indriyas are perfectly quiet. Mind also is free from likes and dislikes (raga and dwesha). Then you get supremacy or independence. Now you are conscious of your supremacy. Without vairagya no spiritual progress is possible.

 

Vairagya is of three kinds, viz., dull (mandha) intense (theevira) and very intense (theeviratara). Dull vairagya cannot help you much in the attainment of your goal.

 

Vairagya is the opposite of raga. It is dispassion or non-attachment. It is indifference to sensual objects herein and hereafter. Vairagya thins out the fatty sensual mind. It turns the mind inward (antarmukh vritti) This is the most important qualification for an aspirant. It is the one and the only means to enter into nirvikalpa samadhi.

 

Vairagya that is born of vikalpa is lasting and steady. If you seriously think of the various kinds of pain in this samsara such as birth, death, worries, depression, suffering, disease, loss, hostility, disappointment, fear, etc., if you understand intelligently the defects of sensual life (dosha drishti) and the transitory and perishable nature of all objects of the world, vairagya will immediately dawn.

 

How to Develop Vairagya

 

Study of Vairagya Shatakam of Bartrihari and the company of dispassionate sadhus and sannyasis will also help one in developing vairagya. The temporary vairagya which one gets when he is attending the funeral of a dead person and the vairagya which a pregnant lady gets cannot help one to attain spiritual exaltation. The mind will pounce upon the objects when it gets opportunities.

 

Aspirants generally complain to me: “Swamiji Maharaj, we are meditating for the last twelve years. But we do not know the reason why we have not made any substantial spiritual progress.” This is due to lack of intense vairagya only. The mind will be ever thinking of objects even during meditation. Intense vairagya only can help the aspirant in attaining self-realization.

 

Tatparam purushkyatheirgunavaithrisnam–“Para vairagya or supreme non-attachment is that state wherein even the attachment to the qualities (sattwa, rajas and tamas) drops owing to the knowledge of the purusha.” (Patanjali Yoga Sutras: 116).

 

The vairagya described in the previous sutras is apara vairagya (lower one). Now comes supreme vairagya. In the former state, there is preponderance of sattwa. Sattwa is mixed with rajas and tamas. The yogi gets siddhis and becomes a videha or prakritilaya. But the yogi with paravairagya rejects the siddhis also and gets sakshatkara or darshan of the purusha.

 

In ordinary vairagya there is a trace of vasanas and desires. But in paravairagya all vasanas, samskara and desires are fried in toto. In paravairagya there will be no desire at all. Perfect desirelessness is paravairagya. In the Bhagavad Gita (11-59) you will find: “Objects fall away from the abstinent man, leaving the longing behind. But his longing also ceases, who sees the Supreme.”

 

Note how vairagya arises in the mind. The transitory, evanescent and perishable nature of all things creates a sort of disgust in all minds and in proportion to the depth and subtlety of nature, this reaction from the world works more or less powerfully in the mind of every individual. An irresistible feeling arises in our mind, viz., that the finite can never satisfy the infinite within us, that the changing and perishable cannot satisfy the changeless and deathless nature that is ours.

 

When you are not impressed with rich living, rich style of living cannot attract you. When you are impressed with the idea that meat and wine are not at all pleasurable, meat and wine cannot tempt you. When you are impressed that a woman is nothing but a leather bag of pus, urine, bones and flesh, woman cannot tempt you. In that case, if you fail to get meat or wine or woman, or to have a rich living, you will not be agonized at all in your mind.

 

Why are you attracted towards a young beautiful lady? Have :you ever seriously thought over this life-and-death problem? The answer is: because owing to your ignorance you vainly think you will get pleasure from her. If you have got vairagya and viveka, it will at once tell you that you will get immense pain from her rather than pleasure. Then your mind will recede or withdraw from the object, viz., woman.

 

It is only when the mind, being divested of all its desires, is indifferent to pleasure and pain and is not attracted by any object, that it will be rendered pure, free from the grip of the great delusion, like a bird freed from a cage and roaming about freely in the akasha.

 

As soon as vairagya arises in the mind, it opens the gate of divine wisdom. No true and lasting satisfaction comes from the enjoyment of worldly pleasures. Yet, people rush headlong towards objects even when they know full well that the objects they are trying to seize are unreal and that the world in which they live is fraught with miseries of all sorts This is Maya. When the mind rests in atma then the only nitya-tripti or eternal satisfaction comes, because atma is paripoorna (all full). All desires are gratified by realization of atma or self.

 

Sometimes the mind gets disgusted with one kind of sadhana. It wants some other kind of sadhana. It rebels against monotony. The aspirant should know how to coax the mind on such occasions and to extract work from it by a little relaxation of mind. The cessation of sadhana is a grave blunder. Spiritual practices should never be given up under any circumstances. Evil thoughts will be waiting to enter the gates of the mental factory. If the student of yoga stops his sadhana, his mind will become the devil's workshop. Do not expect anything. Be sincere and regular in your daily meditation, routine and tapas. Do not deviate from the path you have chosen. The fruit will come by itself. Your efforts will be surely crowned with roaring success. It takes a long time to purify the mind and get one-pointedness. Be cool and patient my child.

 

Cut the Knot of Attachment

 

Attachment is the first child of Maya. The whole lila of the Lord is being kept up by the force of attachment only. A sober man just tastes a small peg of champagne, when he is caught up in an evil company and becomes ultimately an inveterate drunkard through attachment to spirits. A teetotaller just takes a whiff of Gold-Flake Cigarette and becomes in due time a terrible smoker through attachment. There is in the mind a gummy substance which is like a mixture of castor oil, glue, gum arabic, mucilage of tragacanth, gluten paste, honey, glycerine, jackfruit's juice and all other pasty substances of this world. The mind is glued, as it were, to the objects of the world with this mixture. Therefore, attachment is very strong.

 

Therefore, O man, never say: “My body, my son, my wife, my house, my property, my garden,” etc. Attachment is the root cause of the innumerable miseries and troubles of this world. Discipline your mind little by little. The old evil habits will creep in. Destroy them to the very root. Lead a life of perfect non-attachment. This is the master key to open the realms of Brahmic bliss.

 

But work incessantly without attachment, without any identification. Then alone you can feel that you are a different being. Karma Yoga elevates a man to sublime, magnanimous heights, when done in the right spirit, with the right mental attitude or bhav. One should patiently work. That is all. No meditation or samadhi is ever possible without a preliminary training in nishkamya karma yoga. To work without attachment is doubtless a difficult task. It is an uphill work. But it becomes a very easy job and pleasant too to a man of patience and determination. You will have to do it at any cost if you want final beatitude and immortality. Everyone of you will have to do it, though not now, at least after taking five hundred births. There is no other alternative but to do so. But the question is: Why not now? Why not in this very birth itself? Why not cut short the cycle of births and deaths and enjoy the bliss of the self right now, this very second? Therein lies real wisdom.

 

Work cannot bring misery, but it is attachment and identification with work that brings in all sorts of unhappiness and bondage. Understand the secret of work, the technique of karma yoga and attain God-consciousness. This jnanagni or fire of wisdom will consume all fruits of actions in toto.

 

Nivritti-Marga or the Path of Renunciation

 

Have a strong determination and a strong will. Never think of returning home after taking up the nivritti marga. Look before you leap. Have courage, fixity of mind and a definite purpose in life. Be not wavering. Are you ready to give up all possessions, including body and life? Then alone come to me. Then alone take to nivritti marga and embrace sannyasa. Think twice before you come to definite conclusions. This is not a rosy path as you imagine. It is full of thorns. It is beset with countless difficulties and hardships. Be humble, patient and persevering. Never care for siddhis or quick awakening of the kundalini. I shall serve you. I shall help you. I shall take care of you. Be not troubled. Be not anxious. I am your servant always. Be noble-minded. Mere emotional bubbling will not help you much. Some young men have returned to their homes. Difficulties are many in this path. But it can make you King of kings, and Emperor of emperors.

 

Those who want to take to seclusion and nivritti marga should observe mouna, non-mixing and disciplining the indriyas, mind and body while living in the world They should train themselves to a laborious hard life, coarse food, sleeping on the ground or a hard mattress without pillows, walking barefooted without umbrellas. Then alone they can bear the rigorous austerities of an ascetic's life. They should give up timidity and shyness in getting alms.

 

Aspirants who take to the nivritti marga generally become lazy after some time, as they do not know how to utilize their mental energy, as they do not keep any daily routine, as they do not follow the instructions of their masters. They get vairagya in the beginning, but they have no experience in the spiritual line. They do not make any progress in the end. Intense and constant meditation is necessary for entering into samadhi.

 

Have you fully determined with an iron will to, stick to this line at any cost? Are you really prepared to sacrifice this body and life in the cause of Truth? Have you understood the glory of sannyasa and the importance of seclusion? If your daughter, brother, mother or son comes here and weeps, have you got the requisite strength to resist moha? After coming here can you cut off all sorts of connections with your relatives? Can you stop all correspondence? Don't hide anything. Be absolutely candid. Be frank and guileless. Speak to me the truth now. Open out your heart to me.

 

Sleepless vigilance is necessary if you wish to have rapid spiritual advancement. Never rest content with a little achievement or success in the path, a little serenity of mind, a little one-pointedness of mind, some visions of angles, or siddhis, a little faculty of thought-reading, etc. There are still higher summits to ascend, higher regions to climb up.

 

The attraction for objects and ties of various sorts make a man bound to this world. Renunciation of all attractions and breaking up of all ties constitute real renunciation. That sannyasin or yogi who is free from attraction and ties enjoys infinite bliss and supreme joy and peace. Fluctuation and imagination are the two seeds of the mind. Fluctuation is the fuel. Imagination is the fire. The unceasing fire of imagination is kept up by the fuel of fluctuation. If the fuel of fluctuation is withdrawn, the fire of imagination gets extinguished by itself. The mind becomes tranquil, It is withdrawn into its source, the atma.

 

You came alone. You came naked You came weeping. You will go alone. You will go naked. You will go weeping. Why then are you proud of your titles, false wealth and false knowledge? Become humble and meek. You will conquer the whole world through humility. Become pure in thought, word and deed. This is the secret of spiritual life. The Upanishads and the Gita harp again and again upon this one note.

 

To a passionate man there is much pleasure in this world. He runs after money and women. His mind is intoxicated, perverted and clouded. Poor man, he does not know what he is really doing. But to a yogi or a man of discrimination this world is a ball of fire. It is a big furnace in which all beings are roasted. The three kinds of tapa, viz., adhyatmika, adhideivika and adhibhautika, are burning him.

 

Friend! Is there any limit to the number of fathers and mothers and wives you had in the crores and crores of previous incarnations? Yet this clinging and false relationship have not gone. Discrimination has not dawned.

 

Are you not ashamed to repeat the same old process of eating, drinking and sleeping day in and day out? You are proud of your titles and knowledge. Have you improved your life even a bit? What have you learnt from the recent Bihar and Quito earthquakes! Are you attempting to reach that imperishable seat, wherein all desires and trishnas are completely eradicated? Are you endeavoring, in however small a measure it may be, to attain the highest goal of life, atmic realization, which gives immortality, bliss and peace? You are not crawling now. You have learnt to stand up and walk. You can think, reason out, judge, infer and ratiocinate. Will you not utilize this precious life and all your various faculties in meditation and self-realization? Can you give me a definite word of promise to the effect? Speak to me the truth now. Climb up the ladder of yoga. Drink the nectar of immortality.

 

Vairagya born of viveka is enduring and everlasting. It will not fail the aspirant at any time unlike the vairagya that comes temporarily to a lady who gives birth to a child or to a man attending a funeral in the crematorium. The view that everything in the world is unreal causes vairagya or indifference to the enjoyments of this world and the other heaven worlds also. One has to come down to this mrityuloka from heaven when the fruits of good works are exhausted.

 

The same five kinds of enjoyment of sensual pleasures prevail in the heaven worlds also. But they are more intense and subtle. This cannot give real and lasting happiness to a viveki. He shuns all enjoyments of the heaven world also. He kicks them aside mercilessly. He is keenly aware of the pleasures of the three worlds and is convinced that they are only a mere drop in the ocean of Brahmic bliss.

 

Remember the Sayings of the Gita

 

Meditation on the following sloka of the Bhagavad Gita will induce true vairagya. “The delights that are contact-born, they are verily the wombs of pain, for, they have beginning and ending, O Kaunteya, not in them may rejoice the wise” (5:22). “Indifference to the objects of the senses, and also absence of egoism, insight into the pain and evil of birth and death, old age and sickness” (13:8). “That which from the union of the senses with their objects is at first as nectar, but in the end is like venom” (18:38). “Having obtained this transient, joyless world, worship.”

 

What Vairagya is Not

 

Vairagya does not mean abandoning social duties and responsibilities of life. It does not mean detachment from the world. It does not mean a life in the solitary caves of the Himalayas or in the crematorium. It does not mean living on neem leaves, cow's urine and dung. It does not mean wearing of matted hair and a kamandalu made of fence-gourd or cocoanut shell in the hand. It dose not mean shaving of head and throwing off clothes.

 

What Vairagya Is

 

Vairagya is mental detachment from all connections with the world. That is all. A man may live in the world and discharge all the duties of his order and stage of life with perfect detachment. He :may be a householder. What if? He may live with family and children. But at the same time he may have perfect mental detachment. He can do his spiritual sadhana. That man who has perfect mental detachment while remaining in the world is a hero indeed. He is much better than a sadhu living in the Himalayan caves, ,because the former has to face the innumerable temptations of life every moment.

 

Wherever a man may go, he carries with him his fickle, restless mind, his vasanas and samskaras. Even if he lives in solitude, still he is the same worldly man if he is engaged in building castles in the air and thinking of the objects of the world. In such case even the cave becomes a big city to him. If the mind remains quiet, if it is free from attachments, one can be a perfect vairagi even while living in a mansion in the busiest part of a city like Calcutta or Bombay. Such a mansion will be converted into a dense jungle for him.

 

A dispassionate, man has a different mind altogether. He has a different experience altogether. He is a past master in the art or science of separating himself from the impermanent, perishable objects of the world. He has absolutely no attraction for them. He constantly dwells on the Eternal or the Absolute. He identifies himself every moment of his life with the witnessing consciousness that is present in pleasure and in pain, in joy and in sorrow, in censure and in praise, in honour and in dishonour, in all states of life. He stands adamantine as a peak amid a turbulent storm, as a spectator of this wonderful world show. He is not a bit affected by these pleasant and painful experiences.. He learns several valuable lessons from them. He has, in other words, no attraction for pleasant objects and repulsion for painful ones. Nor is he afraid of pain. He knows quite well that pain helps a lot in his spiritual progress and evolution, in his long journey towards the Goal. He stands convinced that pain is the best teacher in the world.

 

Let me sound a note of warning here. Dear aspirants! vairagya also may come and go, if you are careless and mix promiscuously with all sorts of worldly-minded people. You should develop vairagya, therefore, to a maximum degree. The mind will be waiting for golden opportunities to get back the things once renounced. Whenever and wherever the mind hisses or raises its hood (for the mind is verily like a serpent), you should take refuge in viveka and in the imperishable fortress of wise, dispassionate mahatmas. There are different degrees in vairagya. Supreme dispassion comes when one gets himself established in Brahman. Now the vairagya becomes perfectly habitual.

 

A man can develop inner mental detachment from pleasure and pain while living in the world, He should see that he is not carried away by the pleasant experiences of the world. He should not cling to them. He should simply remain as a silent spectator. If he thus practises for some years, every experience will be a positive step in his ascent of the spiritual ladder. Eventually he will be crowned with sanguine success. He will then have an unruffled mind. He will have a poised mind also, A dispassionate man is the happiest and the richest man in all the three worlds. He is also the most powerful man. How can Maya tempt him now?

 

Best Training School

 

Doctors have a wide field for developing vairagya. Every day they come across patients with incurable diseases. Every day they see dead bodies in the mortuary. Thus they have innumerable chances of seeing Maya in all her naked state. They can be convinced beyond a ray of doubt of the impermanence of life here in this world of man.

 

The superintendent of jail and all the officers there also have wonderful chances of developing vairagya, if they are lovers of Truth and Emancipation. The sight of hanging a condemned prisoner will open their eyes.

 

Hey Saumya! Your mental state is laudable indeed. The life of a sannyasin is the best kind of life in the world. A true sannyasin is a monarch of the three worlds. Even an aspirant is an emperor of the whole world. Lord Krishna also says: “Only wishing to know yoga, even the seeker after yoga goeth beyond the Brahmin world.”

 

I am extremely glad to note that you have got exceptionally good spiritual samskaras which want to burst out in this birth. They need protection and tender nurturing for your further growth and evolution. Don't be carried away by the temptations of the world. Be careful. Be wise. The beginner in the spiritual path should not remain in the company of worldly-minded people. He should resort to satsang. The company of worldly-minded people is deadly poison. You will not become a prey to lust if you shun their company. Remain in seclusion under the direct guidance of a guru who is fully established in Brahman till you get perfect vairagya and till you are established in the path of sannyasa.

 

A Note of Warning

 

Many aspirants come to me with great vairagya and enthusiasm in the beginning. But they do not keep up the same spirit for a long time or till the end of their sadhana. When they begin to encounter some difficulties, they retrace their steps. It is indeed a great pity. Look before you leap. Have a firm determination Stick to the path of sannyasa till you reach the goal and realize the fruits of sadhana.

 

If you lack any of these qualifications, wait for three more years. Do spiritual sadhana, asanas, pranayama, concentration and meditation at home. Plunge deep into silent meditation. Plunge yourself in selfless service also. This is very necessary for purification of mind. Keep up your brahmacharya. Destroy all evil habits, if you have any of these, such as smoking, tea, coffee, etc. Develop all virtuous qualities. Mark the change in your mental attitude. Then come to me. Come here and be prepared to lead a hard, active life.

 

Some aspirants come in a hurry. Due to lack of vairagya they go back. This is not good. Hence the warning

 

Many aspirants want to do some nice work such as writing, collection of flowers for puja, arranging books in the library, some kind of supervision and management. They dislike works such as drawing of water, cleansing utensils, washing clothes of sick persons, sweeping, nursing, cooking, cleansing bedpans, etc. They consider these works as menial. They have not understood the real spirit of nishkamya karma yoga. They are yet Babus.

 

Dear Prabhu! There is a dull spiritual awakening in you and a dull type of vairagya. You will have to develop both. Dull vairagya or mere bubbling emotions will not help you much to stick to the path of renunciation. For some time leave the house and remain in a secluded place for a week or two. Enquire. Cogitate. Investigate. Do self-analysis and find out if you have any moha, attachment to your family members. Find out if your mind runs after sensual pleasures. Be sure whether you will be able to leave the sensual objects, relatives and all sorts of comforts and conveniences. If you can completely disconnect yourself from the world, then alone come to me. I will make you a yogi of yogis in a very short time. There are many who have advanced in the spiritual path considerably in course of one or two years. You can also do that. Implicit obedience and faithful carrying out of instructions of the spiritual preceptor to the very letter is what is expected of you; that is the secret of success in the spiritual path.

 

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